BOO!
2 papers down, 2 more to go.
FA was like usual... hopefully there werent stupid mistakes...
section B was difficult (when was it never?).
but i hope i'll do reasonable.
sigh, it's the mod that i put in most effort in...
other mods would be worse i guess.
since im just doing last min work =/
so FA, do me proud! lol.
and stats, i'll really work on u, you are my nxt hope!
bgs was rahh!!!
damn stupid.
twc...
DUN HV TO SAY ANYTHING.
i dunno where to even start -.-

alrights.
update again aft my last paper next wed.
jiayoujiayou!

school ends in 2 weeks!
it seems fast.
there's final exams after that.
sian...
my stats suck.
damn >.<
n it's been super long since i blogged.
super busy with all the projects n stuff...
sigh.
i feel like i dun even hv time to do my own work!
but it's a little better now.
taking a break from tuition...
no more presentations for this sem...
no more tests... (only final exams)
there's still 3 more projects...
but it's better le lah :)

tml's bidding!
so fast.
bid for next sem alrd...
think i'll be taking
1) LTB
2) B.Law
3) AS or CT
4) management comm? (not too sure)
5) one more which i hvnt decided.
super thankful i dun hv AW bcoz i think it sucks. lol.

i guess 4.5CU would be enough bah?
im alrd dying with 4 this sem...
nxt yr will hv less tuitions though.
but LTB is super busy one.
RAHHH...
good luck for the last 2 weeks of lessons!
whee~

PICTURES!
these r just some, the rest r on facebook :)

supposed to blog bout ASOC camp but i didnt coz too busy =p
busy slacking.
hahas. double tuition on wed.
ytd had to cancel tuition coz one of my grp members gt H1N1.
so we hv to be socially responsible?
hahas, but it's a bit contradicting coz my group stil met for lunch today!!!
HAHA.
but we're fine lah!
they even went ice skating aft tt!
but i had tuition so i didnt join them...
sad lor!
this brings me to the second contradiction.
i went for tuition today.
hahas.
BUT is bcoz im fine n wed alrd had the lesson le!!!
so exposed alrd mahh...
okay lahh.
mayb i shldnt hv.
den i could hv ice skated wif the rest of them.
sighh.
was quite sad whn i had to leave.
but cute jasper made me happy n i was ok aft the lesson alrd!
hee.
he kept asking me to say THANK YOU JASPER DI DI!
hahahas! so cute!
n he stil insisted on giving me his monster toy =p

okay, about camp.
day 1:
super dreading camp.
thankfully i had SB to go camp wif.
but we different group...
so...
i was still alone in the end.
first person who talked to me: my faci LIM MIAN! =)
i tot she also freshman, lol.
first person i talked to: CHARLENE!
coz she sitting in front of me den she also nothing to do like me so i just said hi to her.
tee hee!
my group's one of the HEROS,
we're DAREDEVIL!
aft a bit of briefing, just put down our stuff in the resource room n went to the library there to do some self intro n get to know one another.
a bit awkward at first but by the time we went for lunch we were nt so bad le =))
lunch was wanton mee + ice cream + tao huay.
aft lunch was station games.
screwed up badly at the marshmellow one.
YAY at the dart one.
spin spun spun at the flour one.
run ran run at the chicken papaya one.
throw hard hard at the balls one.
lol. i think there are 10 station games but i dun rmb the rest!
oh man.
but anw i think aft tt was shower time.
hahas.
we went to the SMU hostel to bathe.
it was nt bad!
got heater n v clean somemore.
just tt had to wait...
aft tt was dinner n den RANDOMANIA!
hahas. it's like station games also.
PLUS hv to do super random things.
hahahas.
the finale for randomania was stringing our shoe laces up n den catching balls from second floor.
hahas.
i managed to get a few of other ppl's de!
slept at 1plus to 2 coz the other grop still playing cards den i couldnt slp!!!
but slept damn badly.
kept waking up lor...

day 2:
woke up at 7plus.
b.fast at 8.
reached SENTOSA at around 9plus?
played station games at sentosa.
WHEE!
it was super fun coz some r water games den can get wet!
it wasnt very hot tt day.
some games were like captain's ball in the sea.
wash hair wif soap to collect foam.
spiderman wonderwoman hulk n see who reach the sea first.
frisbee.
caterpillar thingy wif balloons.
dog n bone like game wif water bombs.
volleyball wif water bombs.
some traffic light game which we had FORFEIT.
had to give zhen xin a honey facial hahaha.
n lim mian licked his face aft tt!!! XD
okay, tt's all i rmb bout the games.
aft tt was lunch.
a bit of stage games.
den mass games after tt.
there were 3.
all muz guy girl pair.
so first was wif vincent.
hahahas.
think to the rest i looked like a doll whn he just picked me up wif one arm.
second nt really guy girl pair but muz build human pyramid in the sea.
so we were successful for like half a second n we all collapsed.
HAHAS.
last was wif zhen xin.
i got piggybacked n just had to attack other group's girls wif water bomb to wet them.
hahas.
aft tt shower time.
thankfuly my grp went fastest den no nid wait.
hehe!
aft tt we sat wif the guys at the rocks n had some HTH talk..
=/
den we had buffet for dinner.
n the finale.
faci-s performed for us.
entertaining =))
had some stage games too.
xavier n charlene super got mo qi!
okay, tt nite nv really slp.

WE WERE SUPER HIGH.
went for supper wif a slping bag.
dun aks me y.
it was super random.
den we took pics.
gt back to sch n started whooing ppl!
HAHAHAs.
super funny at the beginning.
"Hv u even been wooed?"
we played games, drunk as forfeits.
hahas. but the girls just took super small sips!
vincent was drunk!
amazing!
had more HTH talk but it was called trafic light game.
hahaha.
slept at 5am.
YAY!
woke up at 8plus.

bfast, super short DEBRIEF, watched video, n bid gdbye!
lol.
no lah, got write note for each other.
hahas.
n i find this quite gd.
=)
at least got some memories!
but the rest of my group went for lunch tgt but i couldnt join them coz i had tt talk!!
RAHHH!!!

the talk was super boring compared to camp man.
can just stone there.
n i knew NO ONE in tt talk.
rahhh...
how sian.
but i managed to survive.
okay, pics tml den. nites!
love ASOC camp! hehe!
LOVE DAREDEVILS!!!! =DDD

YAY!
camp was real fun!!!
HEHE!
but im quite tired today so i'll blog bout it again tml.

so i'll just say

camp is coming.
on sunday.
it's 3 days 2 nights.
im super sian about it.
=.="
nt gg for the pre-camp dinner.
n i dun think i noe anyone in my group.
urgh.
im so sian about sch n everything bout it.
i rather tutor the naughty kids 100 times than start sch.
=(
whether i hv frens gg smu acct matters no more.
im stil standing alone now......
i stil hv to make other frens.
brrrrr.
super sian.
i hope i'll live thru the camp.
it's actually just 2 n a half days.
n i think can bring hp :)
thankfully.
bah.
kids are cute whn they're not naughty >.<
okay.
i noe aft the camp i'll b saying tt it was fun.
or would this be an exception?
lol.
it seems like as i get older i make frens less easily =/
RAHHHHH...

crap crap crap crap crap!!!!
this sucks!

LAUREN!!!! QUICK COME BACK!!!!

man, if only im a bomb...
i can just explode n i wun b there anymore!
BOOOOM!

dont u noe the feeling of hving an internal struggle within?
damn!
>.<
i wanna SCREAMMMM!!!!
n cryyy....
to just hide and cry....
and cry.
and cry.
and cry.

haha, i jut tot of another option 'impossible' option.
if only i can just fall into a deep deep slp until sunday...
or even tues.
hahaha.
stupid unfeasible idea of mine.
BOO!
im going crazy...

it's something beyond me....
sad hate sad hate sad hate sad hate sad.
more sad than hate.
=((

chungwayway is miserable.
bcoz of something i dunno y i cant even control.
man, i shld listen to mr meanie's advice n go to slp.
damn.
another sian day tml wif two tuitions.
SIGH.
they stole the time i would hv left for xavier.
im depending on xavier tml.
i really am.
but i doubt i'll even see him.
i'll just go into this mood again n be a lifeless person....

i've always said to myself.
but whn hv i followed wad i said.
man.
i cant control it!!!
the misery,
the urge.
the stupid feeling in me will nv go..............................................
im gonna explode.

BOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOMMMMMMMMMMMM!

oh yah, meanie is turning 19 soon.
in like 35 mins.
so....

im blogging now, aft a verrrry loooong time bcoz i think im going to explode if i dun type/say anything.
urgh.
but i dun even noe wad's wif me!!!
>.<
im just feeling v URGH.
damn!
wad's wrong wif me!!!
this...
n that...
arhhh!!!!
i'll stil hv to survive right?
right right right???
BOO!

this.
it's not the first time right?
y am i reacting liddat!
childish behaviour!!!
totally.
but tt's probably the distinct difference now tt i've seen n realised.
BAH!
crappp...
how to stop myself frm feeling liddat!!!!!
>.<
i noe i shldnt b feeling this way but i cant help it;
seriously!!!
someone save me!!!!

that.
it's the same issue over n over again.
i get my hopes high n it falls back to sq one.
crap.
i shld hv asked more clearly.
nw who can i blame.
URGH.
but it's not a lose lose situation..
i mean, i can start all over again.
yes i can.
but will i?
can i live the life i had 2 yrs ago?
crap.
i dun wan to!
ARHHHH.
im going crazy.
n xavier's nt going to be here tml.
i think i'd die!
hopefully jasper n javier can cheer me up...
zzzzzzZZZZZzzzzzz.
sian.

oh man, i need my 'jacob' so badly,
it's a pity i hvnt found him...

this is the hippo city tour which we didnt take...

the vehicle, about to get into the water, hoho!

a shot of the spore flyer from the river!!