urgh.
im bored already.
when im only up for like 45 mins.
i clocked close to 12 hours of slp again.
YAY!
haha.
and when i woke up,
i dun rmb dreaming of the bballers!
=)
heex.

it felt so great slping,
slping,
and slping!
ytd aftn slept for 3 hours.
den i slept a bit before 10 last nite until 9 plus!
it's like i nv wake up at all.
den i opened my eyes at 9plus,
replied msgs and slept again.
till 12!
my g.aunt had to call.
though i didnt hear the house phone ring,
i was woken up by cousin to answer the phone.
RAHHH.
i could hv slept longer!

anw,
i dreamt of the bballers!
AGAIN!
but wif the guys this time.
most of them were like playing water in a river.
a river wif hippos!
lol!
den ly, lauren n i not in the river.
with a few guys.
we were just watching.
den lauren n i saw this CREATURE in front of lx i think.
so we shouted for her to stop moving forward.
but think she nv hear.
den she touched it i think.
haha.
she was very shocked.
den i woke up already!

rahhh.
silly dream.
of ppl who matters to me.
so fine.
it's supposed to be a gd thing.
since i cant see them as often during the hols now.
BOO!
i wan to see them everyday!!!
okayokay.
im starting to whine again.

BOO!
i miss them already!
gosh,
just one day.

4 days of chalet seemed long whn i tot of it.
but it's really sad that im home now,
back from chalet at aloha changi.
the 4 days were great;
in the sense that i could keep sch work away from my mind,
rotting away,
staring blankly at the ceiling...

we met at tampines mrt on mon aftn.
shopped in the supermarket for bbq stuff and lots of food!
i dun quite rmb wad we did whn we reached the chalet.
(half way through this post i rmbed we watched incredible tales)
but basically we spent tt evening preaparing for bbq!
ate quite alot of pineapple rice prepared by fy,
and i quite like her potato salad!!
=)
seniors came down.
played silly games.
did shocking forfeits.
mr sham, mr lee n coach came down too.
felt very entertained by mr sham's n coach's conversation.
we ate.
played ps2.
mah jong-ed till the nxt morning.
eh.
no,
i slept at around 4am.
the rest slept at 7.30am.
haha.

woke up n stoned.
ordered pizza for lunch.
basically we just watched dvds, mah jong-ed, ps2-ed, played cards and slept until late evening.
there werent many of us left at the chalet.
just 5girls n 5 guys.
went tampines mall for our first proper meal.
den watch indiana jones.
it was quite boring at first but it got more exciting somewhr lah..
managed to catch the last bus back to chalet.
jq, ly, veron n hy came back.
didnt noe wad to do...
ps2-ed at first.
got tired.
so jq n i watched saw3.
den bernard n song ghee n hy joined in.
ly and veron were on the sofa slping,
waking up occasionally.
haha.
after saw3,
watched big mama house 2.
n tt idiot jq slp!
>.<
left me, hy n bernard.
ah long pte ltd aft tt.
jq woke up.
but i slept coz i just watched it wif marilyn that aftn.
but anw,
tts not the point.
point is tt i stayed up!
hahaha.
only went to the bed to slp at around 6.30am.
an achievement!!

woke up.
ps2-ed AGAIN.
went to changi village for lunch b4 renting bikes.
haha.
we thought it would be fun cycling.
we cycled at changi beach.
attempted to go to east coast but decided to do it after dinner instead.
so we played at the playground.
it was damn fun!
seriously!
though i think i looked like an idiot;
totally!
rahhh!
went back to the chalet to rest before going to play bball.
dinner-ed.
went back chalet.
left at around 10.26pm.
cycled to east coast.
it was around 12.30 whn we got to mcdonalds for supper.
by then already quite tired n our butts were so painful!
n we stil had to cycle all the way back!
took another 2 hours or so.
got back at around 4am.
jq, lauren, veron n hy slept.
marilyn n ly attempted to watch transformers with the guys.
leaving me n lx hving nothing to do
=P
so we played cards with bernard while talking crap.
the guys got big bed!
very shuang!
so while waiting for veron n hy to wake up,
lx n i lay on the bed.
haha.
disturbed jq;
or rather,
irritated her.
HEE.
coz she was slping n lx n i kept talking to her n wake her up.
but she won anw.
coz we decided to be nice n slp wif her.
=D

it was just checking out whn we woke up.
followed by lunch at tampines mall.
den home.
so fast hor?
AHHHH!

highlights of the chalet!
1) the super funny pig game we played wif seniors on the first nite!
2) the forfeit folowing the game...
3) the conversation btw mr sham n coach while they played NBA on the ps2! (argue argue argue)
4) very nice movie watched :)
5) left YOU and ME who survived the movie marathon on the second nite! wahahaha.
6) cycling!!!!! (it would hv been better if our buts didnt hurt)
7) swinging on the swing!
8) our "TEAM BONDING session" at the SEESAW! damn funny!!! but very fun too!
9) stupid blind mice game which made me looked like an idiot >.<
10) veron and jq's double seater bike crashing into the bushes! hahaha.
11) looking at planes taking off n landing!! the feeling's shuang!!
12) poking and irritating dear jq with our very random topics just to get her stop slping (though we failed), asking her to choose between us (gosh, we seem so desperate!) and telling her to ride the extra bike back to the rental shop n to get breakfast for us on the way. HAHAHA. sorry for irritating u jq! but no more chance already!

so,
a record!
slept at 3am first nite.
6.30am on the second n third nites.
hahaha.
chalet's meant to be a chance for the "always so HIGH" jq to disturb the "always slp at 10pm valerie" and stop her from slping.
but well,
seems like it has become the other way eh jq?
=P
im sure u're impressed by me!
hahaha.
okay.
this is really sad.
coz this hols is going to be different;
totally!
coz i wun be seeing u ppl almost everyday!
urgh.
im off to slp now.
got to clock back the hours i sacrificed during the chalet to add more life to the dead nite!


pics tt r in my phone from the chalet....
(there're some nice photos wif ly, i'll try to get them!)

fy n me!!!

me n lauren!

a nicer pic of us...

being random again.
but meaningful!

me with my milo.
yes, now everyone thinks i very zi lian!
=((

see how bored i was?

hmmm.
chalet's here!
=)
n i think i overpacked;
again!
GRRR.
anw the team bag is so big!
n im so small.
so i think i look weird bringing it.
argh.
but whatever.
too late to transfer everything into bag pack now.
leaving at 1.30.
is it too late?
hahaha.
nvm,
bet they'l be late too
=P
shall go hv lunch before leaving with my big bag!
urgh.
they're going to laugh at me again!!!
BYE.

this LAUREN TAN arhh!!!
okay,
correction,
it's STUDEL.
rahhh.
i shall still REFUSE to watch NOISE.
eeek!
sad already rite lauren? =P

it felt weird playing ball again,
finally.
hvnt touched the ball since the last match.
haha.
but ytd's gathering was pretty fun lah.
with lauren n i hoping to be able to slack...
and not to get the ball.
hoho.

supposed to be going shopping today.
but,
change of plans.
RAHHH.
just going to collect g.aunt stuff den go to sophie's house swim.
okay,
she finally came back after like half a yr?
she dun recognise me already!
>.<
anw,
no shopping means no jacket.
no slippers.
no popular.
no gifts.
no seeing of new phones.
no buying of anything!
arhhh!
but nvm,
i shall wait till next weekend bah.
=)
got to go pack chalet stuff now.
chalet's tml!!!!! ^.^

urgh.
so bored!
this morning i woke up,
hving a werid feeling in me.
the first tot that came to me was...
holidays le...
eh!
but i think it'll be quite different.
coz i wun be seeing jq, ly, fy, marilyn n lauren so often already!
arhhhh!
will i survive?
=P
anw photos!!!

okay.
a short post.
im lazy.
common tests were over since tues.
and yes i noe i hvnt blogged.
tt's y i said im lazy.
it's like i've gt nothing to do but yet i still refuse to blog.
hehe.

after ct, i've just been going out going out going out.
the feeling's kind of great.
coz it's like u dun hv to mug the whole aftn anymore.
u dun hv to feel guilty of not spending ur free time on ur notes.
but i noe i'll still hv to do tt very soon.
whn term starts again.
but this hols i'll just hv my last enjoyment before i begin my journey;
seriously.
urgh.
but i think i'll still be procrastinating whn terms starts
=/
so anw i went out wif ff n jy on wed for IRONMAN and BUFFET (yes again, sick of it now).
den met jq, ly n lauren in sch to go queensway.
as for thurs i went to develop some NICE photos and went to sch for fy's bday surprise!
hahaha.
this is for tonite coz i wun be msg-ing u
=P

today was kind of slack.
lects went thru cts.
had free period gc.
den break.
free period physics.
so nice!
had math after tt.
we ended up enjoying the entire lesson by
1) guessing whr he went last wk
2) which qns he set
3) which qn he marked
hahaha!
n tt's our math period.
our sch ended after tt.
slacked in sch b4 going to eat apple studels!!
chatted there for quite long.
like until a bit aft 5.

yuppp.

anw,
sigh.
it bothers me.
it really did.
sometimes i wonder if i made things worse for u.
i feel so helpless at times.
but it's not within my control.
i just feel really sorry for u.
i dun really noe wad i can do to help u.
i just hope there's something i can do..

it's been quite some time i know.
post still stuck on college day.
but i've been quite busy.
yes.
busy TRYING to study for common tests.
hvnt really succeeded in my attempt to do so.
man.
i hvnt quite done anything this weekend n im feeling kind of weird.
but a gd thing's tt i have tml to do as much as i can for myself.
and a better news would be tt tues's the last paper!
4 papers down, one last one to go!
enough bout common tests.
i'll just keep my fingers crossed.


alright.
to the highlight.
TODAY.
18 may 2008.
the second consecutive year tt the bball girls made it unforgettable for me.
^.^
first few bdae msgs i looked at b4 i went to slp were from lauren, yk, jq, bernard, peter, jim and samuel.
haha.
but there were msgs to my other number as well. just tt i didnt check =P
from fy, melissa, xw n ly?
plus marilyn's lost msg.
hehe.
a monster ate up ur msg!
anw thanks so much to u ppl for msging me at midnight.
and i hope i didnt leave out anyone...
g.ma woke me up at 9 plus to give me a red packet.
lol.
i was so reluctant to wake up so she just left it on the bed.
and then mom called.
so fine,
had to wake up.
grrrr.
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bought 1831.
too bad it didnt come out.
awww.
but still gt chance!
3118!
hahaha.
went for uncle's wedding.
noel was so bored waiting for me to come.
he called me like 3 times!
>.<
hmm.
he gt a new phone for his bdae.
im waiting for august to come.
i want new phone too!
but something tts holding me back from getting one is tt i'll lose all my msges!
that's VERY sad.
okay.
buffet was fine.
after eating,
noel n i were entertained by our silly grandaunties and grand uncles talking about buying 4d.
their conversations were really funny!
all so old.
den blur blur one.
den they like gt miscommunication liddat.
it was quite funny!
so noel n i laughed like idiots.
sabrina n melvin were entertaining as well.
after tt jiu go hme le.
and i did a bit of physics unless i gt quite tired.
so i tried reading nuclear physics on my bed.
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i was reading reading until i hear this strange noise outside the hse.
at first i tot y my neighbour talk on the phone must stand outside my hse talk.
den for quite long.
so i opened the door to go out.
den suddenly no more sound.
so i tot my neighbour left.
so i go back into my rm.
den after tt got again!
=.="
so i ask my g.aunt gt hear a not.
she told me mayb my ear gt problem.
n even if gt i shldnt be so busybody.
hahaha.
but i stil went out to see anw.
though i scared i'll paiseh if really gt ppl outside the hse.
den i saw this box outside!
O.o
my name lehhh.
O.O
gosh.
dun tell me they are here!
-hesitates and then peers out from hse-
i saw #10!
HAHA.
TAN JIE QI!
went out of the hse to check.
saw lauren running up the stairs.
HAHA!
she was wif marilyn, li xin n trudy.
veron n huiyi took lift.
den i asked them jieqi leh?
they said jq nv come.
all the j2s nv come.
o.O
i tot i saw #10?
bluff!
anw they made me open the box to find this phone inside.
told me it was a new phone they gt for me.
o.O
cost alot tts y they MADE pandan cake for me.
hahaha.
dun believe!
>.<
but no choice.
hv to pretend to believe.
hehehe.
after tt they went my room...
saw alot of my pics.
arhhhhh!
idiot g.aunt still show them the modelling one!
RAHHHH!
okay n then ling yi n jq popped out from dunno where.
gt this big mickey mouse box!
very nice!!!!!!
^.^
hahaha.
actually the presents inside all very nice lah!
hmm.
den ling yi ask me show her the way to the toilet.
gt motive one okay!
after tt they made me go back to my room.
say wad open present.
i went in.
lights were off.
den i was thinking...
how come the cupboard there gt light one arh?
dim light.
my g.aunt gt buy new light meh?
how come i dunno one...
den i saw FANGYU with bday cake!!!
haha.
think this was quite a surprise to me.
so they sang bdae long very loudly.
ate the cake...
den my g.aunt ask them stay for dinner.
alot of them cant.
but jq say okay.
hahaha.
think she regretted saying it after tt =P
well well.
lauren, fy, ly, marilyn n trudy left.
jq, veron, hy n lx stayed for dinner.
coz they think a bit bad if they all leave?
i was feeling quite guilty by then.
felt quite weird.
esp after jq say she not going to talk to me anymore coz i hai her nv read her remaining chapters of physics...
so so so sorry!
this weird feeing stayed for a while lahh.
den gt a bit better after msging each of them to thank them.
well.
they just now keep asking me happy a not.
touched a not.
haha...
i a bit bad at expressing how i feel mahhh.
right?
like u all oso didnt noe u all mattered so much to me until season ended?
rahhhh.
i may not show it but u all noe im very touched n happy de rite?
URGH.
dun make me say it!
>.<

i noe u ppl spent alot of ur time for this surprise =)
i noe u ppl could hv spent the time better on other stuff like mugging =))
i noe u ppl love me tts y u all sacrificed ur precious time to make this a more special day! =P
thanks a million, trillion, zillion!
for ur time,
for ur effort,
for racking ur brains to think of how to surprise me.
really happy,
really touched.
just dunno how to show it...
and all 9 of u ppl came!!!
xiexie!!!

but at a point of time,
there was a moment when i tot...
maybe i shouldnt hv mentioned tt the wedding dinner was not dinner but lunch.
tt would hv saved u ppl from the trouble....
=((


once again,
thank you girls for adding another page to my memories!


pics will be up after tues =P
oh ya.
should oso thank sabrina for her random present!
hahaha.

college day ytd.
it was kind of fun.
hahaha.
coz it wasnt as formal as last yr's like ly said.
went to sch early coz jq said they were playing ball.
rahhh.
but there was only jq, ly n hy.
den jq had to leave quite early.
so ly n i were kind of bored.
the time finally came n we went to lt1 to report.
finally at like 4.45 den proceed to hall.
haha.
n we had to checked by a tcher to see if we look presentable!
LOL.
n left the lt.
went to find jq.
ly n i walked here n there.
it was so funny.
hoho.
finally found jq!
n ly n i were like shunning mrs yeo!
a thrilling experience actually.
we hung out there.
helped take the plates down to the lab.
den we went to eat!
=D
yum yum.
wanted to take pics.
but we were short of fy n jq.
did alot of silly things while waiting for them.
and finally we took a group photo!
YAY!
cw2 is happy now!
hahaha.
loking forward to tml's outing! ^.^

the pics taken with my phone ytd...
those taken wif ly's camera nxt time den i post =)

fangyu, jieqi, lingyi and me!
i SO love u ppl! =P

this is the cake they gave me! can make out the words?

hmmm.
after all these farewell stuff, it was really late.
and i guess that was y i got myself into big trouble again.
13 missed calls.
u were SO angry.
n i knew that was it.
i tried explaining but u nv wanted to accept the explanations i gave.
u nv gave urself a chance to understand,
u nv gave me a chance to help u understand.
at that moment,
i thought to myself,
was i really that bad?

i was upset that u didnt understand me enough.
hurt that u didnt even bothered listening to wad i had to say...
disappointed that u gave me no chances.
and i finally broke down;
after the call.
u team mates got ur wish.
u saw me cry.
but i noe the reason behind y i cried wasnt quite wad u ppl wanted.
but still,
the tears were genuine;
just for a different reason.
cab-bed hme;
yet again.
crying all the way hme.
on the way back,
issues i tot i had already come to terms with came back to me.
if only mom was here,
i would hv had more freedom.
there would be no nid for me to waste money cabbing hme.
no nid for me to run hme from bus stops.
no nid for me to explain y i wasnt hme on time.
no nid for my reasons to be thrown back at me.
and if only i was still living in b.p.
in the house i can call my own.
i really hate staying here.
it seems like im just renting this room for me to slp and study.
i hate going back to something tt's not mine everyday...
but there's really nothing i can do...
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cried again in the showers.
thinking that she'll nv understand me.
thinking of wad i had done wrong.
and y couldnt she just accept the fact that this is how jc life's going to be.
she ignored me whn i tried talking to her.
n i tried again after dinner.
she finally responded by flaring up.
and the one sided quarrel started with her fierce scoldings and with me just listening to them.
many times she mentioned basketball.
disapproving it.
i really wanted to tell her how wrong she was when she made all these nasty comments.
but i held back.
there was no point in me making her angrier by talking back,
and she wouldnt listen to me anyway.
her tears showed that she cared for me.
and i accepted the fact that i was wrong not to keep my phone with me.
i admit that i've been going home late these days,
but my reason behind is that i just want to spend more time with my team;
but she'l nv understand.
after all the scoldings we didnt talk again.
my tear drops fell like rain last night.
but i got a clearer picture of wad she expects of me.

and i promised myself;
this is going to be the last time i'll ever make her angry again.

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here's the pics i owed u ppl from the m'sia trip...

lauren!

marilyn holding her shoe!

me doing my silly dare...

mr sham n me! haha..

oh yah,
i read lauren's blog and it was just so SWEET.
thanks lauren,
my fellow neutral idiot who doesnt remain neutral sometimes!

thanks juniors for everything ytd.
and jiayou for next year!

during the nball match...

at the food court at kallang entertainment centre
(lingyi, val, jieqi)

jieqi wearing lingyi's sunglasses!

me n jieqi both very shy!



lingyi and her didi!

rahhhh!
and these adds on to the memories we already have....