today's a boring day for me. last nite slept at arounf 10 plus... this morning cousin woke mi up at 10.45. >.< so pissed lor... she ask me make breakfast for her... but in the end she nv eat lor!!! wth! argh. den i watched her show wif her... den wrote craps in my diary... bathed... lunch... watched a bit of barney again... den sleep. AGAIN. onli sleep for half an hour den my cousin come n wake me up again!!! wth!!! i was quite pissed. ignored her n tried to sleep. but she keep disturbing me. grand aunt came in n ask me to wake up... say wad 6.30 liao. eat dinner. i was like yar yar, ur timing always wrong de lor. i looked at my watch. it was onli 5.30!!! she was like so embarassed. but still put on a brave front n walked out of the room. im so damn pissed! couldnt get to sleep. so i woke up. had dinner. watched cartoon. played table tennis. played cards. come online. nothing to do.
oh yes! mom's coming back tonite!! =D so happie. den will finally ger my mp3 player n the digital cam i forgot to bring back from japan. heex. careless me. tml muz remember to get her to sign my report book... yesterday took neo prints... wif my dear n mei. haha. at j8. den we go cineleisure. =D met mei's frens. -.- dunno them. haha... den reach home at 8... =D nv get scolded by grand aunt. she still say if is ee anything i wan tell her, she will buy for me... wahaha... so gd rite. wonder y... =P (dun tell u)
well, tt's all for now... coz i busy questioning someone... hahas. cya another time. byex. nitex.
i miss u. i miss u much much more than wad words can describe. thinking of u all the time. dreaming of u every nite. i realli miss u. =P take care hor... dun fall or hurt urself again k... i'll be worried de. heex. well... looking forward to seeing u. but i dunno when that will be. hahax. so well, cya.
hallox... today's the first day of my holidays... well, holidays are finally here. this year seem to hv passed very quickly. sad leh. next year different class liao.
i woke up at around 10 today. but now still feel like sleeping. haha. came online n did nothing much. watched tv too. later going to meet yz mei n my 'dear'? haha...
yesterday... finally passed up my subject combination form. haix. i still dunno if i made the right choice lor... how???
frist choice was triple science, pure geog, hist elect. second choice chem, physics, pure geog, hist elect. third choice triple science, pure geog, lit elect.
haix... forget it. submitted le. cant do anything. yesterday's recess was quite a fun one. haha. din spend it wif meijun or xiuwen though. went to look for yi xiang. coz i promised to? haha... he was in the canteen wif his classmates. they celebrating dunno wad. since it was his last day in anderson, so i talked to him for quite some time. he made something for me leh... waaahhh... im so touched boy! thankz wor! i noe u spent quite some time doing it. sorry. n also sorry to disappoint u ar... for not giving u anything YET. i will give u de. juz dat it's so last min dat's y cannot make anything mahx... hahas. thankz to ur class for offering me that piece of cake without fork. =P hmmm... dun say so much bout this... i'll write to u bout it.
after recess got prize giving. well, personally, i think last year's prize nicer. but well, can get already very gd le la. hahax. congrats to yixiang for topping his class. also to ying zhi n sher han for getting first n second in class respectively. to melvin for being the next president! woohoo!
the concert was boring. sort of. den dismiss... went for lunch wif the guys... den played in class... after that went for training late. =P training wasnt that bad. we missed the 10 rounds. hahax. ended at around 5 plus? den a few of us sat in the rain. i wanna get wet! =D after dat played cards... play until 7 liddat! left me n yz onli... quite dark... i wasnt expecting him to wait for me ar... coz it's like so late le... but i still saw him in the end. hahax. so went home wif him lor. =D wah... no nid go home alone... heex. so happie. =D haha... reached home at around 8. wah... lucky nv get scolded... i was like screaming crazily once i reached home. jumping around... bleah... last day of sch... of coz la!! but im gonna miss u lots. lots lots lots!!!
as for wed... it was the art festival.
wad did i do ar? oh man! it was boring lor...
meijun n xiuwen got band... den i no one to talk to de... lucky got apple. haha... den went for financial course late. bleah... heck care la. msged fren... den firdaus they all keep saying i action. i also dunno wad they mean... so of coz ignore them rite... -.-" den play the board game dat time the peson ask me join the other group... bleah... den i very unwilling. at first say dun wan de... but after dat i juz join lor. den i tot will be like so boring... but not dat boring la... quite funny. coz someone is always so funny. den i keep laughing... she realli quite funny lor... =P after sch went out wif xiu wen n mei jun to take neoprints. hahas..
well, think nothing much to wirte about liao la.. cya den. byex.
[time can nv erase memories nor can it heal my heart]
why.
why is it always so difficult to say goodbye.
to u whom i've once loved,
n i still do.
u encouraged me,
u cared for me,
u motivated me to work hard n do well.
u once told me u loved me,
i wonder if it was juz a dream.
we shared sweet memories,
as well as bitter ones...
the difficult times shared together,
n the happiest moments we had.
u made me cry at times,
but u made me smile most of the time.
u n i spent time working on this friendship,
but now the time has come,
for us to end it here.
'to grab u one last look,
den u will wave gdbye'
thank u for being who u r- a great fren,
to have always been there to provide a listening ear,
n to make me smile most of the time.
keep these memories wif u,
i'll keep mine.
i believe we will still keep in touch.
rite?
will miss u lots...
hi. i hvnt been updating since 3 days ago. hahaz. not counted as long rite? argh... damn sleepy ar... so wun type much. i wanna sleep! am so tired. today no training, coach din come. wasted my time waiting for him... bleah. could hv gone home to sleep de leh... hahas... now i keep thinking of sleep onli... die ar... become pig liao... hmmm... if realli become pig, u still wan me mahx? =P well, miss ow yeong told us our class position today. haix. compared to last year, i did worse. much worse. sad leh. hahas. she refused to tell us our level position...
these few days got the financial workshop. hahas... quite fun la... coz we are like playing another version of monopoly. cool lor. it's fun! den my group received 2 yellow cards today. bleah. WHO CARES. well, i dun... so yars... tml so fast getting back report book. den should be going out wif meijun n xiuwen, maybe sherhan also going... hmmm... den thursday last day of sch le. woohoo! den i can sleep for as late as i like le... =P
kk... i wan to go sleep le... although it's still quite early... but i realli going to doze off in front of the com le... *drops dead* hahas... (x.x) cya den... byex...
*loving u as much as u love me*
hellox. today's a rather fun day. heex. i woke up at around 10am. had breakfast, n used the com fer a while b4 bathing my cousin. i was running late lor. coz i was supposed to meet yz mei at 12.30 at amk mrt. but i onli left my house at 12! moreover, i had to bring my cousin to her mom first. bleah. waited for the bus also. i was 10 mins late. around there la. sorry wor mei...
went to orchard mrt. met jie n my fellow bball seniors- ade, von n xy. =D went to heeren. on the way, something happened. everyone like so down. =( but it din last for long. everything was back to normal very soon. watched grudge at lido. hahas. first time watching movie there for me. it's like so big! *wah* it was alright for a horror movie. juz that i was quite confused bout the story line. keep going back to the past de. so i dun even noe when is present, when is past. hahas. den got some scary parts la. the best part was the ending. scariest. people from behind kept screaming. went to take neo prints after dat. me, mei, jie, xy n ade. took twice. first time i decorated it wor! >.O i look so yuckz in all the pics. bleah. went home after dat. was around 5 plus 6 liao. we took the train to marina bay so dat we can sit... hahax. den mei dunno y we took dat. she very confused. coz the rest keep bluffing her. say we going there for steamboat n lots of craps like saying the mrt is driven by reversing n dat there is a new station called raffles place 2 which is linked to amk mrt. hahas... keep laughing today. my innocent mei kept being lied to. poor her. we also told her got new mrt station called lido. =P back to the mrt thingy... i couldnt give the game away... so mei, dun blame me hor... =P sorrie. well, i reached aunt's shop at around 7 plus. was starving. lucky no gastric ar... juz came home... going to bed soon... *doze off*
hmmm... still thinking if tml wan tuition not. how ar? think dun wan la... hahas... another day. tml catch up on mi sleep. wait till holidays den go through exam papers... haix... i hvnt decided how to spend the rest of my time wisely leh... how ar...
i hv nv felt such warmth,
i hv nv felt such love.
to hv finally felt this love n warmth is when i was wif u.
would i be able to feel them again,
i wonder.
this is not just my choice but is also urs.
time would nv be able to erase memories i hv wif me,
neither can it heal my heart.
wif memories running though my mind,
n my heart so shattered n hurt,
the only way out is for u to erase them n heal it.
only u are capable of doing that.
but are u willing to do so?
to be wif me every moment possible,
to love me wif all ur heart,
to wipe my tears away whenever im down,
n to nv hv me living the dark n miserable life i am living.
promise me u will always be by my side whenever i wan u to be,
promise me u will love me,
promise me u will nv leave me crying alone,
promise me u will not allow misery n darkness to step into my life.
loving u since some time ago,
there i sat quietly,
not wanting to tell u how i feel,
afraid of wad the outcome would be,
i fear.
i realli do fear.
missing u whenever i dun see u,
thinking of u whenever i can,
dreaming of u almost every nite.
am so lost every moment without u,
so unsure of wad to do.
u've stepped into my life,
playing a significant role,
leaving footprints in my memory lane which can nv be erased by anyone.
u are important to me.
u really,
realli are.
i would always love u...
oh man... i bet u wun even read this entry. bleah. wadever. tt's wad i feel. wanna read it up to u. guess i'll end here. byex. gdnitez.
hallox. school was alright today. the results came back. well, it was quite expected. n i was sort of prepared for the low scores. afterall, i'm the one who did the papers n i should roughly noe wad results to expect huh. i muz realli say that i've not realli put in a lot of effort this term. but there's no use crying over spilt milk yea? wad matters is that i've got over it n work harder next time.
watching singapore idol now... juz finished writing my BF his testimonial. =P hahas. den i also force him to write one for me... im so damn lame.
kaes... back to the results... totally sucks.
english paper 1: 44 (no comments)
english paper 2: 31 (can u believe it? onli pass my 1 mark?!)
history: 65 (out of 80, still alright la)
english literature: 38 (quite satisfied le but i think is tyco de)
mathematics paper 1: 31 (yuckz. carelessness~)
mathematics paper 2: 34.5 (hahas. still careless lor. bleah)
science: 63.5 (aint v.gd. some careless mistakes though)
h.chinese paper 1: 45.5 (bad...)
h.chinese paper 2: 61 (argh. dunno wad to say)
home economics: 43 (oh man. sucks)
art+music: 82 (did my best le la)
today's time table ended wif a talk by mrs tan. =D she talked to us bout our results. not dat bad la... went opposite to hv lunch wif mj n xw. dey went for their cca after tt n im left alone. *so lonely* well, but din last long. coz yk, zs, zy n a few others were in class. playing dodge ball. hahas. den i so scared the ball hit me lor. >.< but lucky it din. after dat played table tennis. fun. they went for their cca... left me n yk. we played for bout 30 mins? aroudn there. obviously he won, coz he's better. went home wif me after dat. he treated me drink again. i feel so bad. but well, he's my bf rite. hahas. bleah... i got to treat him lunch one day ar... lost my bet. din do much after i came home la. hmmm... i took so long to write this entry. singapore idol end le... hahas... lucky slyvester din get kicked out ar... *whew*
yesterday had training. it wasnt dat tough. =D but im aching all over today. dunno y. hahas. after like wad seemed like years, i finally nid not go home alone after training le... hahas. went home wif him*... he actually waited... wah... *touched* was at the viod deck den saw my granny. bleah. so quickly said bye. -.-" so sorry for leaving in a hurry. well, do u think i got into trouble? hahas. she told me to see her after dinner... wadever la. so i went to ehr room lor. the conversation goes like this:
me: u wanna see me huh.
her: yes.
me: yea?
her: who was dat juz now?
me: a fren.
her: a fren? or a boy fren?
me: a guy fren.
her: wad's dat supposed to mean?
me: depends on how u interpret it though.
her: why were u wif him?
me: obviously he's walking me home.
her: if he's juz a fren, nid him walk u all the wae home?
me: he lives nearby. n obviously, he's being a gentleman!
her: u better watch ur attitude.
me: ya, fine.
her: better not let me see dat again.
me: wadever~
hahas... im so bad. *wahaha* tml going out... shopshop, take neo prints... bleah... but dun even noe wad time... coz mei hvnt reply me... argh... kk... mi gtg... watch tv. cya. nitex. byex.
it isnt easy coming up wif a decision like this. but this has been tot over for quite some time n finally made by me who noes best. so i'm sure u'll accept it wif no questions asked rite?
-loving u so-
hallox! today finally go back to sch liao... woke up so early...
hahas... as compared to the holidays la... so sleepy. *zzzz* reach sch there de bus stop, den saw 72 in front. hahas... yk was in it. so i walked to sch wif him. b4 sch juz talk talk talk. den got assembly. from now on everyday got assembly le. sad huh. muz keep locking door. after assembly went to the hall. got this talk by the vp n yan qi. vp's talk was about vision. i onli remembered that vision is our future desired state. hahas. dunno la. forgot le. but i dun g-a-d. n her talk, every now n den will stop n scold us. say we noisy de. but she say is bcoz the BOYS were making noise. hahas. =P yan qi's talk still ok la. not very long but still eat into our recess. so no recess lor. den got public speaking course... tot it's gonna be boring. but the trainee--pk lim? proved me wrong. forgot his name le la... damn gd lor. i doing my own stuff he also nv scold. drawing on my table cover. n decorating my homework diary. hahas. den got activities also.
n hahas... i damn lame. dunno wad to say. so juz anyhow crap. especially the sweet heart de. i did think of saying the truth. hahas. but den in the end dun dare. =P i said it's meant to be a secret. so cannot say. in the end i say my bed is my sweet heart. everyday sleep on it n wif it, cant live without it de. hahas. blankie also. but forgot to say. =P
after dat dismiss... went out for movie. watched white chicks. it's funnie... hahas... den the cinema damn cold. *freezes* lucky got UR warmth. hahas. or i would hv frozen there. =P haiya... dun say so much bout the movie thigny here... later U dun wan me to write bout US den i die. better not repeat my mistake. so this movie trip i'll write in my personal diary bahx. =D
yesterday i went out. go causeway point. wif mei jun n xiu wen. watched cool guy. hahas... exactly where i went today also. =P den they watch until cry. hahas. actually quite touching la. juz dat im cold blooded de. -.- it's also funnie... n cold also!!! no jacket.almost froze there. heex. den went mac. ended up rushing home to see our results. crazy us. =P den my eng even worse ar... my results all very bad. dunnno if can get to where i dreamt of going. haix. most probably cannot. so forget it lor. dreams are there to motivate me, not there for me to fulfil though. hahas.
monday i went to orchard. wif me cousins... so long nv see him. miss him lots. hahas. den he wanted me go his house stay over. but in the end i din. coz i dun wan go home alone. =P nv buy things... onli got myself the tigger on the rocking chair. heex... im gonna collect them all! =D nothing much happened la... was kinda boring. but it was me who requested to go out de. =P baddie me.
well...
thankz for the movie. thankz for wadever u've done. =D i dunno if u're happie wif my answer, but my answer will remain as dat. hahas.
hallox.
life's still as boring.
i wonder if the period before exams r better or the period after exams...
bleah...
before exams so stressed,
after exams is like so slack.
oh man.
woke u rather late today.
at around 10?
coz my cousin came n disturb me.
argh.
>.<
den had breakfast...
watched big rock candy mountain fot the dunno which time wif cousin.
lunch...
den i also forgot wad i did.
den slept at around 3...
woke up at 5 plus.
bathed,
went down for dinner.
8 plus came up.
watched pearl harbor.
hahas.
den came online.
boring huh.
=P
well,
missing u as time passes.
wonder when i'll get to see u again.
hv tot bout it.
i've roughly made a decision.
now i've to carry it out.
enjoy ur hols~
wun be online often.
coz my mouse sort of went hay wire.
has difficulty in clicking.
bleah.
i simply hate it.
-.-
cyax.
nitez.
heyz...
im bored.
real bored.
juz woke up.
*yawnz*
yesterday went to some concert.
forgot le...
as usual,
nv realli pay attention la...
heex.
=P
im forever liddat.
went wif xiuwen n meijun as usual.
den we keep laughing in the mrt.
hahas...
so embarassing.
den they assumed they noe how to go.
but in the end they dunno.
-.-
hmmm...
finally reached there...
took quite some time to settle down.
started quite soon...
lucky can use phone.
if not i realli dunno wad to do there.
k la...
it wasnt as bad as the previous 2 i went to.
coz this was sort like shorter.
=P
ended at around 9?
somewhere there.
den me jiu go home le.
coz...
coz...
i was tired.
n...
grandaunt dun like me home so late.
so be gd lor.
hahax.
well...
would be going out later...
wif mei earn...
so long nv see her...
miss her...
hahas.
my life is boring...
oh man...
im trying to make it meanningful.
mom still wans me to go to australia...
haix.
wads past is past.
there is no more turning back.
lets juz move on.
but memories do stay.
i hope u r happie wif ur decision.
i'll remember wad u said about tml being a new day.
perhaps i've nv treated u well...
im sorry.
so...
best frens now!~
the journey way home...
cool...
not much talking...
but enjoyable.
i was so sleepy n so hot...
wanna fall asleep le...
zzzz
silence is golden...
enjoying ur presence.
enjoying the feeling to hv u by my side.
for the first time i wasnt afraid of the dark.
bcoz u were wif me.
*smilex*
wanted to tell u how much i love u so~
[to love takes time, but to forget takes a longer time]
heyx!!!
exams r finally over!
calls for a celebration?
*wonders*
nah...
wait till the results r out den decide bout that.
today was home econs paper...
some stuffs which i didnt even look through actually came out man...
believe it or not.
juz my luck.
mcq wasnt dat bad.
it was the cloze passage dat nearly took my life.
i dun even hv the simpliest idea wad it was.
k...
to cut it short,
i think im going to flunk a paper no one would ever flunk.
well,
maybe it isnt dat bad...
we shall wait n see....
section B was a diasaster.
coz i also dun realli noe how to do...
section C wasnt as bad.
juz dat i could remember enough points to get me extra marks...
so there goes my hopes...
k...
i shall stop talking bout home econs.
eng was rather alright.
juz dat i took grammar cloze for granted?
so as u've had guessed,
bingo!
lots of careless mistakes made~
history...
ok la...
as usual.
some know, some dunno.
but i scared source based.
as for lit...
it wasnt dat bad.
hopefully it will turn out alright too.
hahas.
mathematics was pretty difficult.
it was the first time ever in an exam i left questions blank.
i simply had no idea!
no time too...
hvnt add the number of careless mistakes in it!
so...
pray hard.
heex...
science was another careless one.
*shucks*
lost marks for nothing...
summore is do b4 de!
*haix*
wad a waste...
h.chinese wasnt dat bad.
i didnt realli study...
but still managed to do some of the questions.
ya... den today...
i came home today...
did nothing much.
tried to pack my room.
im half way done.
the other half another day den pack bahx...
tired le...
wanna sleep.
later i think going to cut my hair...
see first...
but wun cut too short...
hours since i last saw u.
n im already missing u.
how long hv i got to wait b4 u would be by my side every moment u can?
*fat hope*
kks... i damn sian now... anotehr time den update. byex... cya!
hallox...
well, exams hv already started. realli wan to ask myself y i keep coming online.
*shucks*
everyone seem to be studying so hard...
so pressurizing to see that happening...
but well, should be happie for them shouldnt i?
anyway, friday was our first paper.
eng n h.chinese paper 1.
i crapped as usual.
some boring n lame stuffs.
wonder if can pass a not...
*hmmm*
more confident for eng though.
coz my chinese simply suck.
*bleah*
but my eng isnt any better la...
eh... wad else to talk about?
had tuition in the morning today...
did math n science.
as usual, nothing absorbed.
=P
den had lunch.
played wif my cousin...
-.-
she went to bathe while i lay on her bed.
den i went to bathe after her...
finished the weekends homework.
but got alot like dunno how to do?
*who cares*
den tried to study history...
but i think tml forget everything liao.
*die*
still got a lot of subjects to study for...
how?
well, well, dunno la.
later going out for dinner i think...
haix... den come back bathe n sleep.
tml go sch,
another brand new day.
english paper on wed....
fast huh.
haix.
but text types briefly noe le.
history started a little...
lit duno how to study.
*dead meat*
hmmm...
concern from 3 of them came yesterday...
i dunno wad to do lor...
how?
how?
how?
die ar...
hv to make up my mind soon.
-.-
but i realli wan to concentrate on my studies first!
so...
got to put that aside.
well, there's home econs tml.
=D
dunno y now i like home econs very much.
hahas...
coz like no nid do anything de.
but tml muz sit according to register number...
cannot talk le...
sad huh...
so muz concentrate during lesson...
may not be a bad thing la...
but it's gonna be real...
BORING.
hahas...
well.
guess i'll end here...
i'll try my best not to come online.
TRY.
*pray for me*
=P
going out le...
cya den...
gd luck for the papers!
