heys.
this blog seem so dead.
well, i guess it is.
it's been like how many freaking days since i've updated...?
let's see....
hmmm...
not long.
juz 18 days?
hahax...
not wonder it's so so so dead.
updated at the begining of feb n it's already the end of feb now.
in fact,
it's the second last day le.
feb has onli 28 days!!!
aniway,
common tests are almost over.
notice the word 'almost'?
haix.
dat means still got...
*sad*
2 more papers left.
both tml.
both requires me to memorise.
haix.
DIE.
kkz.
shouldnt be so pessimistic huh.
but let me recall...
i think i'll flunk SOCIAL STUDIES.
confirmed.
it'll be a miracle if i do pass.
higher chinese n physics were tough.
so was chem?
english was crap.
same goes for history.
hopefully all goes well bahx...
eh...
i screwed up for both math papers.
there were juz so many careless mistakes in it.
or maybe,
let's juz say im DUMB.
bleah...

hv quite persuaded myself to forget bout the cross country this yr n not torture myself wif the 5km.
should juz enjoy my last day of term 1 huh?
BUT.
haix.
gang quan wrote down my name...
hell.
haix. haix. haix.
how???
now muz run.
-.-
fine.
i shall.
but haix.
the distance so long lor...
im not as interested in it as last yr...
last yr got ppl to run wif me.
now how???
maybe go find xiu wen bahx.
but she'll run faster than me...
much faster...
den i'll be behind....
maybe not even get into the top 10??
or maybe even exceed the time given....
!!!!!
my stamina dropped alot.
i dunno y.
haix.
wadever.
i'll juz die running.
ya...
n my dream will come true.
shouldnt i be happie?

gtg. gd lucks for those collecting their results tml. n to those still taking their tests tml. =) i guess i'll update next weekend? o.O see ya.

[my dream can onli be fulfilled once in my entire life]

hallox. happie cny! =)
today's boring.
cousins came, so did some relatives.
bleah.
i wasnt bothered,
AT ALL.
was rather irritated,
by my cousins.
>.< they like to use the com alot.
den i cant use.
how unfair!
summore i needed my table to do my stuffs lor.
they took up so much space!
n keep messin up my bed.
*pissed*
throw my soft toys at each other,
hving pillow fights.
how childish.
wanna play also should leave my poor toys alone wad.
bleah~
had lunch n then did practically nothing.
sort of rotted away....
hahas.
lied on the bed...
thought of u...
n sum how i fell asleep.
*amazing!*
watched tv,
eat eat eat.
im getting fat!
played cards,
had dinner.
came online...
started rotting again.
now im updating. =)
im so lame. yesterday...
celebrations in sch.
it was alright.
alright in the sense that the concert didnt drag,
n we were dismissed punctually.
heh. wasnt realli paying attention to the performance la.
i slept?
n looked at mr tan...
!!!!
dun get wrong idea.
not i wan to look de.
but is bcoz SOMEONE keep observing him,
SOMEONE.
hahas.
>.o
cai jie got second for the card making thingy.
cool.
n the class got 3rd for the riddle thingy.
lost to 3/6 in both areas though.
but we still rawk huh.
after celebrations,
headed back to class.
opened the hampers,
n the pizzas arrived.
i was hungry.
*aww*
ate a slice of pizza,
n lots of snacks. =P
heex.
went to bball court to find yk n jel.
we went to ps.
wanted to catch a movie but the timings just didnt seem too right.
either too early or too late.
so we juz shopped around,
had lunch n bought my chocos!
hmmm...
it's a pity i couldnt go out wif u...
*regrets*
hahax.
but nvm.
anyway,
reunion dinner was rather dull.
sort of got scolded coz they said i looked so sian,
n also for putting my elbow on the table...
wadever la.
i left the table as soon as i finished.
went to finish my homework.
BUT.
im still not done.
still hv my history essay,
AND i hv yet to complete my english essay!
history still ok lor.
but english!!!
i dunno how to continue dat stupid story!!!
wad would the author lose if he talked back?
a permanent scar? o.O
or a punch?
*diaos*
sounds so exaggerated lor.
it's so fake.
i can onli think of the reason y that incident made the author angry.
but tt's onli part of the assignment!
i need to noe wad he lost in order to complete this story!!!
argggh!
someone, help???
forget it.
i'll finish it tml.
since im not going out.

hmmm...
i miss u.
it's juz a day.
u told me to count in days.
haix.
but one day is long u noe.
still hvnt forgotten how u looked when u smiled at me in class yesterday.
cute.
=)
well,
at least u hvnt forgotten bout me.
i reali miss u.
[r u feeling the same?]

had a funny dream yesterday.
unbelieveable.
it was a crazy one.
i bet it would nv happen in real life.
dunno how that dream even formed.
dun wanna think bout it,
AT ALL.

argh.
y r all the tests crammed into week 8 alone?
cant they put some in week 7?
they should at least spare a tot for ppl like me who dun hv gd memory.
we can then take our time to memorise stuffs.
ha.
kaes.
i noe memorising isnt gd.
but dat's my best solution so far.
next week's gonna be a busy week!!!
onli fri free.
muz study for the following week's tests.
-.-"
is that how my life's supposed to be?
ehhh....
think this entry's rather long.
but im bored mahx...
so type type lor.
=P

couldnt believe my ears when they told me wad they told me their opinion.
were they kidding me???
o.O
wad they said contridicted wad i saw....
ooooooohhhhh....
or was it juz for show???
well,
but if i were to think bout it again,
was dat the reason y i fell fer u?
wad one of them said struck me.
let me consider it again,
yes.
dat was the reason,
it was one out of the so many reasons.
BUT,
i realli dunno how to react to knowing u arent bad.
hmmmm.
that should be a gd thing.
it realli should.
but dat wasnt wad i've expected.
well,
i dunno wad i should say.
haix.
y r u so gd?
do u realli listen to wad they say?
if they were to tell u to stay away from me,
would u?
the promises u made....
would u keep them??

[the future ahead is hidden behind the cold metal door which cannot be opened until the right time comes]

heyz. real long time nv update liaos. eh.... kinda busy mahx. bball competition started le. =) played 2 matches so far. against fu chun. we won. 44:16. the other one against holy innocents was 40:16. hahas. next match on valentine's day leh... against mayflower!!! hmmm... jia you bahx. =) well... juz wondering if im gonna be happie on dat day? o.O
lessons are boring. cant seem to concentrate. dun realli get wad the teacher's trying to say. bleah... ended up doing some other stuffs... hahas. im lagging behind. hmmm... had 2 geog tests so far n a math test. results kinda sucked. everyone seemed to do better than me de. feeling so inferior. =(
hmmms. i almost got into trouble. well, i might still get into trouble any of these days. bleahhh. dun get wad i mean? nvms. eh... should run for cross country mahx?? o.O me still thinking... it's gonna be a long run though... at east coast park huh? not sure... wasnt realli paying attention to mr umm... wad's his name? o.O well, i prefer mr leong more u noe. =P ha. at least he undestands me more. dat time i previous day on mc he still make me do PE. >.< wadever.
haix. these few days feel very alone liddat. as if no one cares. hmmm... actually, no one does care. chinese new year's coming. gonna use this time to sleep, n sort things out. haix. shouldnt hv gotten myself into this situation at the very begining. haix. but i do trust U to make the best decision. yarsss... i'll respect it.
anyway, yesterday went to coach's house. =) kinda traditional? o.O got old old pics de. cool. hmmm... he's nice. juz a bit too fierce n harsh sometimes. dun u think so? heex. kaes... nothing much to write le. me see when free den come update again bahx. wish us luck for our bball matches... =D
[to u: questions running through my mind, im unable to gif myself the answers. im so lost, something feels missing but i juz dun wan to lose u.]

to fall asleep n nv wake up. =)
create a paradise n live there forever~ fat-hope.