the news i heard.
good news.
but they add more stress.
wad if im the minority?
sighh.
i wan to cry.
i am not greedy.
i juz wan to reasonable score.
please,
let me get results tt will make me smile,
not cry.
im waiting,
anxiously.
scared.
fear.
jittery.
please....

a mixture of feelings...
i wanna sceam...
leave me alone..
i wan to be alone.
at a corner.
for once the word 'loneliness' will not be in my dictionary.
i wan to shout,
shout it all out.
struggle,
den cry.
i hate this.
i hate myself!
i hate the truth!!
but i hv to accept it,
i noe.
whether i like it or not.
i hv to accept reality.
i tried to promise myself,
not to let history come again.
i wan not to break down.
im preparing for the worse.
wif my fingers crossed,
im waiting...

was it a wrong decision?
i've waited so long.
all along,
i've been waiting.
waiting.
waiting.
waiting.
yet some times,
ur calls nv came.
u nv appeared.
u left me waiting.
i've waited so long, n now i feel like a complete idiot..
why,
why was i so foolish,
to wait.
mayb i'd juz say,
perhaps it has been a wrong decision...
i've thought it over,
i dun wan to wait anymore...
let's juz let it go...........