seems like that wasnt the last post.
but this is...


i've been thinking.
thinking day and night,
thinking alot.
and i havent got an answer.
two simple choices.
but no.
both with its own consequences.
which has serious implications.
one that gives me happiness temporarily.
but no one noes whether this path leads to a dead end.
do i take this risk?
the other which will leave me heartbroken and stranded all alone in a place so foreign to me.
but yes, my heart may be mended and feelings will fade away...
will i be happier this way?
i wan to run away.
from this hurtful truth.
a really sweet dream.
a long journey that seemed so real.
u spoke about resposibility,
ur resposibility to them.
so what about to me?

you'll need courage to reason.
to reach a compromise.
but no,
you chose to run away.
just like i did.
i cant face the truth.
nor can i accept it.
im struggling.
struggling for my happiness.
yet you just stood there watching.
so helpless.
but i noe it hurts u too...
all i ask from you is simply to just continue holding onto me...

okay.

yay!
me n my fav toy.
spending this new yr's eve with it...
=.=

it has been quite a fruitful day today.
NO.
it's not bcoz i've touched the rest of my homework.
it's bcoz i feel that today was well spent.
haha.
many funny things happened today!
okay.
we went for the bball frenlies organised by NUS raffles hall.
miraculously, we were early.
so we waited for the other teams to arrive.
we played with nyjc first.
AND
we were known as the xiao mei mei team.
haha.
cause i guess many of us are short?
YES.
u may think im being very critical here.
BUT it's an undeniable fact.
:)
poor us.
den we played with the RH team.
and OH!
i became the clown for a moment;
again.
=.=
i was guarding this opponent whn she already got sub-bed out.
and my GOOD team-mates nv tell me and just laugh at me hor?
>.<
rahhh.
kae.
nyjc won.
then jjc.
there's this person in the jj team who looks alot like ai wei+xin ying.
haha.
and marilyn say plus jiahao.
hmmm.
i agree.
so aft the matches,
we played for a while with jj for fun.
then we had lunch which was provided.
so nice of them!
left for our CIP aft tt.
we took bus 151.
the jj ppl took bus 96 which was rite in front of our bus for a while.
so throughout tt time,
we kept waving to the jj ppl.
and they waved back to us.
anw,
the bus was non aircon and the engine was like spoiling.
then aft a while, we reached a traffic light.
the bus engine rumbled on and off.
for a moment it's loud,
the next moment it dies off.
so i was telling jie qi and lauren that mayb the bus is breaking down.
then when lauren turned to talk to me,
she saw ALOT of smoke outside the bus.
hahaha.
it was very funny if u were there.
so all of us were trying not to laugh but still laughed.
but we also didnt dare to laugh out loud coz we scared the bus driver noe we laughing at his bus.
then we watched the traffic light turn from red to green,
and green to red.
and from red to green again.
and HAR!
we noe no hope liao.
the bus confirm cant move already.
coz at every green light,
it kind of moved forward abit but reversed by more than how much it has moved forward.
hahaha.
so the bus driver told us in a very calm voice tt the bus broke down.
we walked to the nxt bus stop to take 74 to amk.
they slept on the bus.
i was just looking around then i saw jieqi's hands doing something like a pass!
ah har!
must be dreaming of bball.
n i guessed right =)
coz i asked her after that.
hehe.
lucky gt no one sit beside u jq!
okay.
CIP was quite fun lah.
but tiring as well.
i just didnt like moving the stuff.
the collection was fine.
anw,
the funny thing was jq's reaction to a dog that banged itself into the gate.
haha!
coz we didnt see the dog at first.
jq only saw this white thing.
she tot it was a soccer ball.
then b4 she knew it,
that "soccer ball' came flying towards the door and BANG!
she gt a shock!
she tot the man kick the ball at the door!
HAHA!
kae lah.
quite scary actually coz the dog kip barking and barking.
aiyo!
so anw,
we did around 3hrs of CIP.
whee!
not alot i noe.
but at least did a bit!
COME ON!
and b4 tt i was teling jq and marilyn to be more enthu about it.
hehe.
they were kind of shocked this was coming from me.
or was it my tone that surprised them?
=P
the canoenists were quite nice.
they helped us and bought us drinks.
thanks!
we went home aft tt.
wahhhh.
wont see u ppl until sch reopen!
oh man!
tt's quite long.
considering the fact tt we see one another almost everyday for the past 2 months.
hahaha.
k lah.
marilyn, rest ur ankle arh!
ling yi, recover from ur flu!
everyone played well today :)
continue to JIAYOU!!!!
yes!
this is coming from ME!
okay okay.
im signing off.
and hopefuly i get to change the words on the left!

TIRED!
today's trg seemed extremely long.
mayb bcoz i was already tired from ytd.
or mayb we really did train for quite a long time.
well well.
we did skipping.
gym.
played 2 on 3.
abs.
shooting drill!
by the time trg ended was around 11 plus to 12.
bathed.
n went KAP for lunch.
haha.
the guys were heartless enough to order mac delivery without taking our orders.
coz they claimed tt they tot we left sch already.
=.=
alright.
we crapped ALOT at KAP.
laugh and laugh until my cheeks very painful!
>.<
n im still not spared of their qns!
GRRR.
after that lauren n i went home.
jie qi and marilyn went to watch guy's match.
haha.
HOPEFULLY they made up.
and became gd frens again.
and wun kip asking me qns!
hehe.

i slept on the bus...
came home and did my very last gp article!
whee!
finally done.
although it was crap.
dun care.
n im done wif econs quiz too!
im left wif math tutorial!!!!
arhhh.
im SO not in the mood to do it!
anw.
im going down for dinner already.
double trg tml!
WOAH.
must slp early today.
or else tml's study session wasted again.
hahahahaha.

hope jq's phones and player can work properly again!

this is from mom!
my xmas gift...
thanks!!!

yay!
thanks lingyi for the chipmunks songs!
thanks marilyn for letting me kope her songs ytd too!
heex.
and very nice of jieqi to rmb my injured finger =)

kae.
today's post.
kind of boring i noe.
happy xmas den!

well well.
today's christmas eve!
whooo!
it would hv been quite a sad and lonely one without my fellow bballers!
one without you.
one without presents.
one without frens.
so im lucky to hv frens like u ppl! =D

had trg in the morning.
den we went for lunch at curry wok.
den to novena coz adeline wanted to buy bag.
hmmm.
but no suitable ones there.
so we went town.
walked quite a lot.
haha.
but it was fun lah.
afterall,
i dont really get to go out wif them very often...
anw,
took quite a LONG time to go home.
coz couldnt decide on how to go.
n marilyn n jieqi kept insisting tt they wan to sit at the mrt station longer.
but stil managed to reach home in time.
had pizza for dinner =)
n that's...
my XMAS eve!

some pics of the presents...
haha.
gt nothing better to do.
but im guilty i didnt get u guys anything...
ehh...
the stuff from korea count a not?
hehe.
k lah!
i'll make it up to u some day.
haha.
so wait patiently for tt day kae!

these are from JIEQI!!
mickey and minnie!!!!
cookies and choco!
hahaha.
so sweet.

"we'll endure everything tgt"
and now u say.
i want to believe you.
yes, i really do.
but how can you expect me to.
when i trusted u to keep ur promises,
u broke my heart.
u sent me to tears with what u said.
hv u considered how i felt whn i heard.
did u noe i wanted to just break down then?
i was all alone.
left wif nothing.
nothing at all.
nothing to hold onto,
nothing to rely on.
you left me after a last sentence.
you left me hanging.
cried.
cried.
cried.
i couldnt.
but i wanted to.
confused.
lost.
tormented.
i asked myself why.
why hv u left,
despite the promises we made.
despite the times we spent.
why were u so heartless and cruel.
despite knowing how i'll feel.
i tried to tell myself this was just a dream.
one which i would eventually wake up from.
and that u wouldnt hv done this to me.
but no.
the fact is that this is reality.
i want not to face it.
i dont noe how to.
i dont want to.
i only want one thing.
and that is still,
YOU.
no matter wad.
regardless of what has happened.

i know.
everything i've typed;
seems to be,
a contradiction.

hmmm.
back from korea.
though im definitely not looking forward to this.
but well,
gt to accept reality as it is.
it was a great trip!
though it was freezing cold..
so anw, the tour ppl were very frenly n fun!
there was this family of 8 with 3 young kids.
reiney, triston and shane.
age 7, 6 and 2 respectively.
reiney's pretty.
triston is very talkative.
shane's very shy but cute.
hahas.
there was another family of 5 comprising of 3 girls and their parents.
and there was just my family of 4 and a couple.

so well. day 1.
took the 10am flight to shanghai for transit to korea incheon airport.
reached korea at around 8 plus at nite.
went to the hotel straight aft tt.
slp!

day 2.
went to everland!
there wasnt enough time for us to try alot of rides.
but ragnild n i took a roller coaster dat was not very scary but it was quite fun =)
haha.
n the "haunted" house we went into was kind of funny.
after everland i think we went to watch the wedding show.
although we couldnt understand the language, we could make out wad the story was about.
well, it was very nice and funny!
i think aft tt we went for dinner n then went to the decksan spa castle hotel.

day 3.
breakfast.
went for some spa stuff and played in the pool at the spa castle.
the indoor spa has water of different temperatures.
there was a 23, 40 and 43 degree celcius.
i didnt try the 40.
haha.
it was an interesting experience since we werent allowed to wear our swim suits in.
aft tt we wore our swim suits to the outdoor part where it was freezing cold.
haha.
the new experience is tt my body's submerged in a pool tt's around 38 degrees but my head's like so cold.
whoo!
it's just so WOW!
aft tt ehh... think we went to some premium outlet for some shopping.
but there was nothing much to buy there.
we proceeded to yongpyong ski resort to stay over.
we had our dinner there and took some pictures...

day 4.
skiing!
but b4 tt, we went to took the gorndola up to the mountain top.
woah.
the tempertaure up there was minus dunno how many.
but it was just so so so cold!
hahas.
but we still played snowball fight with the other kids though it was quite childish.
n we tried making a snowman.
took some pics there and went back down.
skiied the whole morning and early afternoon.
it was very fun!
haha.
i learnt alot!
how to stop. how to fall, how to get back up, how to climb the slope and how to hold the equipments.
hahahas.
had dinner.
den spent another nite at the resort.
haha.
n in bed,
i remembered i forgot to take snow for jieqi!!!

day 5.
aft bfast, while waiting for the bus to come, i ran out to put some snow in a bottle.
haha.
of coz it melted lahh.
n the bit of snow became a small pool of water.
but it was too late to get more.
coz we left the place.
we went to some ginseng n cordyceps monopoly showroom.
it was quite boring there.
but we gt to try some of the products.
hmmm.
den we went to lotte world in the evening.
there was very little time.
so we didnt took many rides.
triston's family queued for half an hour for the hot air balloon b4 giving up.
the queue was simply too long.
aft tt.
we went to the next hotel for a nite's rest.

day 6.
time flies!
we went to kyongbok palace n the national folk museum.
it was so boring!
but ragnild n i played wif reiney, triston and shane.
haha.
shane gt a soft toy at lotte world n it's name is lotty.
we were trying to squash triston but he claimed tt we hv failed.
=.=
so anw,
we went to the amethyst factory aft tt.
den to the kimchi factory.
(or was it the other way round? i forgot)
but anw, we gt to make kimchi ourselves though we couldnt bring it back.
we went to dongdaemun market aft tt.
dinner.
den hotel.
and tt's the end of our trip.
sad isnt it.

day 7.
left for the airport.
has bfast there.
bought some snacks.
checked-in.
n finally, on this day,
shane's not shy to speak to us anymore.
haha.
he use to hide behind his mom whn we spoke to him.
but this last day he came to talk to us.
hahas!
he's so cute!!!
ahhh.
anw, we took the flight to shang hai n transit back to spore.
reached spore at around 9plus at nite.
during the flight from shang hai to spore, triston and reiney came to squeeze wif me n ragnild.
haha. coz we were sitting on the centre of the plane.
the 4 seater one.
den ragnild n i were in the middle.
n they came n squeezed in wif us.
so there were like 6 ppl on the 4 seats.
haha.
they were very funny.
made us laugh.
so anw,
we played old maid n triston kept giving it away!!!!
coz his expression was so obvious.
hehe.
he was in ragnild's team.
haha...
den ragnild was like asking him to switch team.
but he didnt wan to.
aft we gt tired of the game,
they returned to their seats to watch happy feet.
haha.
n we landed back in spore soon aft tt...

and this is my trip to korea.
so tiring!!! but very fun!!!
arhhh!
i miss triston, shane n reiney!!!


me.ragnild.

me.grandaunt.

bbq!

can u see the snow on my hair? it's tiny.

playing wif snow!

the scenary...

the cow's nice rite?

wahaha. -5.6 degrees!

at lotte world.

wad's this?

the lighting- snowflake

me. triston. shane. reiney.

triston and shane!

harry (photographer) carrying reiney and triston

shane.me.