ly, jq and me after the movie-
dont mess wif the zohan

us again ytd, after watching WANTED.

oh well.
i've been thru a week of sch...
n it's been pretty dull;
and disappointing.
hmmm.
days seemed long,
while nites passed so quickly.
i hvnt got much slp and i cant believe i actually had to sacrifice my almost entire tv time for my hmwk =((
rahhh.
so much to do.
so little time left.
sometimes i wonder how much i'm actually capable of completing.
i dont want to study last min anymore.
tts wad i keep telling myself.
but everytime i find myself dreaming during lects,
stoning during tutorials,
i ask myself den y am i still procrastinating;
y am i wasting precious time.
bleah.
ct results hv really shown me how weak i am.
how much effort i've actually put in.
well,
i can still try to "deceive" myself this time by thinking tt i was busy wif bball at tt time n still recovering from everything.
yes.
it may be.
or it may not.
but i noe i definitely dun hv this excuse for prelims anymore.
so i really nid to get started.
n yes!
lauren gave me a motivation to work hard for chemistry this time round!
let's hope this motivation lasts.

so my results...
chem was pretty much expected since i gave up on it n didnt study organic.
physics was expected too coz i just couldnt concentrate on it over the wkend before the paper.
bleah.
n no miracle happened.
which explains my rubbish grade.
econs was SIGH.
i noe i screwed up but rahhh, i was hoping it would be okay, but it wasnt.
leaving me wif math, my only hope which truned out quite disappointing.
bleah.

okay,
there's going to be econs consolidation lect on mons.
n tt means i end super late.
tues there's chem so i end late too.
fri's the only hopeful day i hv left.
n i really hope no other subjects will hv remedials on this day!
or i'll really go mad!

hmmm.
well,
i thought over wad u wrote n yeah,
i guess i was a bad fren.
eh,
i still am.
but sometimes i really dun wan to be the only one u depend on...

ahhhh.
i hv gp essay to do n i still hv started. im supposed to finish by dinner time!
y do i suck at gp...

it seems like sch's starting.
really soon.
like in 24 hrs i'd be at lect already.
sigh.
i wonder how i will manage to get myself out of my bed tml morning.
5.40am.
it seemed so long ago whn i had to wake up at this time.

urgh.
i went for haircut ytd n it turned out pretty bad.
so i dun wan to go to sch tml!
=((
i dun know how to tie my hair!
arhhhh!
im so looking forward to the nxt weekend!
BOO!
i hvnt studied for tml's chem n econs test...
so dead.
lessons end very late tml bcoz of econs consolidation.
RAHHH.

AHHHH.
2 more days n sch starts.
crap.
i hvnt had enough.
n it seems like everyone else thinks the same...
sigh.
our suffering starts again.
so i muz spend my last weekend fruitfully.
so maybe i shldnt do any more work.
hahaha.

went out on tues to watch narnia;
prince caspian.
it turned out not bad lah.
coz i tot mayb i would doze off coz i dunno the story at all.
hmmm.
den coincidentally met jy at the same cinema!
=.="
so shocked!
n her seat was right beside mine!
hahaha.

wed was spent at hme.
there was class outing but okay,
i ended up not going.
rahhh.

ytd went out wif jq n ly!!!
urgh.
n expectedly they both late.
kae lah.
jq wasnt that late.
=P
so went wif her to buy tickets first.
supposed to watch incredible hulk but ly insisted over the phone tt she wanted to watch u dont mess wif the zohan.
so we watched it,
even though we sat at the first row.
hahaha.
it was very funny lah.
not bad lor.
but we gt cheated of our popcorn!
we gt the family combo coz jq say if i eat lovers' combo wif her very weird.
but anw,
the family combo was really small!
RAHHH.
n jq shared some of our popcorn wif the floor too!
so gt even less popcorn whn we settled down!
haha.
clumsy ly somehow dropped her jumbo hotdog on jq's bag during the movie...
XD
aft movie,
we dinner-ed at subway.
chatted...
n of coz they bullied me lah!
>.<
den jq had to go trg alrd...
hmm,
though very short time spent tgt,
but it was gd to see them again!!
arhhhh!
miss those days whn we hv to face one another almost everyday during the hols!

today was shopping wif g.aunt!
hahaha.
but i didnt buy anything!
sad hor?
im very sad!
coz i didnt get to go popular.
BOO!
mayb i shall insist on dropping by popular tml.
but i shall go cut my hair first.
hehe.

yay!
may the time stop now so tt sch wun start.
oh btw,
i received this forwarded msg tt said,
juz a reminder, mon lect test on bonding n inorganic.
at first glance i tot,
oh, lect topic on bonding n inorganic.
n then i read again n i got a shock.
BLEAH.
it's NOT even a reminder lah!
>.<
i only learnt about the test whn i read the msg.
tt's the FIRST time i heard bout the test.
man.
inefficient.
so im not going to be bothered wif it.
rahhh.
i think i rather not get the msg.
den i'll hv a better reason for flunking tt test.
bleah.
cant they just do some revision on the first day of sch?
muz they test us again?
hvnt we just had our common test b4 the hols came?
i so hate sch.
n i think im scared of sch;
really.
=((

feel so sian diao.
perhaps it bcoz it the last wk of hols already.
RAHH.
i've been slacking for the past 3 days.
fri was coz i was demoralised by the hci paper.
so i totally gave up n decided not to do anything for tt day.
sat morning rotted at junior's trg.
felt abit sick actually.
=/
after tt i went hme n just slept.
dun feel like eating anything oso.
=.="
and i had 12 hours of slp tt nite.
ytd i just watched tv,
slacked around...
bleah.
n slept alot!
another 12 hours.
im feel better now.
back to normal i guess.
feeling-less.
stuck at hme.
rotting again.
facing tv, table, bed and work.
damn.
no life.
n no one cares.

neither do i.
i dun care if i can complete my work;
afterall it's impossible to finish.
i dun care if im going to do nothing for the rest of my hols,
i just want to do wad i want.
i dun care about anything;
nothing affects me for now.
damn.
no one cares anw.
think im going to isolate myself.
bleah.
>.<
cant describe how i feel.
just wan to shout it out.
RAHHHH.

seriously.
no one cares!
and i hate it!
okay fine.
maybe im at fault.

i seek my dream.
all tt i want.
and no one's going to stop me.

feeling back to normal already!
but im pissed.
tt i cant slp as much n as well as the first one n a half wk of june hols.
think i slept too much n did too little.
so i end up hving too much rest and energy.
sometimes i cant fall aslp!
n bleah,
i wake up like at 7 or 8!
=.="
lastest 10.
growl!
so angry!

hmmm.
stay hme ytd.
it's boring facing repeated programmes and papers.
BOO!
movie-d today.
whee!
but the cinema was kind of full.
rahhh.
but nvm,
i was waiting to watch it.
so it's worth it.
=)
it was really humourous.
anw i think im a boring person.
lol.

yeah.
tt's all.
staying hme again tml.
to be a "gd" girl.
hahaha.
yay!
kenny owes me a meal now!
BOO!

BOO.
im normal again.
yay yay yay.
i dun wan to dash again like last nite.
rahhh.
painful thoughts.
emotions.
the horrid life now.
the one before.
crap.

kae.
all tt's not for anyone to understand.
watch kung fu panda ytd...
anw it's gd tt she's not angry.
went sp dis morning before meeting tws to collect my shirt.
and the way back reminded me of some stuff so i dashed again.
BOO!
so so so.
i buried myself in work.
obviously i cant quite concentrate.
but wad else can i do?
okay.
i've successfully finished a physics paper 2.
haha.
not quite successful but i attempted it at least!
now i shall do some math.
hopefully i'll feel better by dinner.

5 days is looooong!
:((
let it pass quick!
but thinking of it again,
maybe i shld do get some work done this wk so tt i can enjoy the lst week of hols!
my motivation!

well,
it seems like almost half my holidays are gone;
so fast.
2 weeks left,
to do so many things!
to go shopping.
to go movie.
to meet up.
to clear my room.
to arcade.
to finish homework.
to get a sense of satisfaction.
BLEAH.

the past wk...
mon was watching the juniors train.
den speed racer-ed.
i think the name's quite cool!
and nothing much.

tues was dental followed by shopping.
i bought my slippers
=)
oh,
poor me.
my dentist gratuated so im going to change dentist.
eeek.

wed was just rotting at hme.

thurs went out for lunch and tried to get some work done at mc donalds.
i was very tempted to watch movie again though i dun think they're really nice.
i'll most likely fall aslp?
okay.
went popular too.
whee~

fri stoned at hme again.

ytd there was the house warming thing.
the house was pretty just tt the rooms were rather small.
but the buffet was great!
haha.
the food was nice!
VERY.

today was just watching tv.
watch n watch though i watched it twice this week.
lol.

rahhh.
i wanna go out more nxt week.
but i dunno whether i can!
>.<
well well.
there's still alot for me to do coz i hvnt touched chem at all.
i finished about one physics paper.
one math paper.
and i tried my best for hypothesis testing.
well,
i stil suck at it.
GRRR.

today marks the end of the first week of june hols.
im not exactly happy coz i think it'd be better if the time stopped at the time whn we were stil chalet-ing.
but i noe it's not up to me to decide anyway.
okay.
i clocked 11 hours of slp!
n i went shopping wif g.aunt this aftn!
yes.
we were supposed to be shopping for her stuff,
but i ended up being the one buying more stuff.
i told her tt's bcoz she's too fussy;
and im very easy going.
haha.
i tried finding a suitable jacket,
but couldnt find one which i really liked,
so i decided against wasting mom's money.
but i bought a pair of shorts and some phone asccessories.
they were really cheap!
coz it was sales;
i so love SALES!
rahahaha.
we were oso shopping for a housewarming prez for g.uncle n family.
g.aunt took such a long time choosing so i decided to like choose for her?
i suggested quite alot of random stuff.
and tt included a BIG dustbin.
lol.
my g.aunt commented,"where gt ppl give dustbin one! next time u gt ur own house warming deni buy u dustbin okay?"
hahaha.
shopping wif g.aunt was very entertaining.
not just today,
i think most of the time.
if she gave me more freedom,
i think i'd love her more.
=/
but i think im getting more now.
i mean,
i could go for the chalet,
meaning close to 4 days she had no idea wad i was doing at an end of the island.
except for that one phone call to find how if i was fine and asking me to enjoy myself.
so i guess g.aunt's quite nice actually?

g.ma wasnt home whn we gt back.
n aunt said some family stuff happened n g.ma went to help.
she added that she sounded really sad whn she spoke to her over the phone.
well,
i pity her.
she's always the one clearing up the mess whn things happen.
a mediator;
a helper.
i cant help but think of those times whn i reached hme quite late and she tried to cover up for me.
or the times whn i sneaked out of the house w/o g.aunt knowing,
she always tried to help.
i just hope she can hv a break of all these.
really.

anw my phone's getting cranky again.
damn.
this means tt i either hv to give up msging (which is like my life!),
or make do wif the old egg phone (so difficult to use!).
so declare i wan a new phone!
but i wan a player too.
so a phone or a player?
im still thinking.

phone bill burst again.
not a few bucks but close to fifteen.
this means $46 plus $30.
tts how much mom's paying for my and solely my phone bill.
u can imagine how she'll react whn she knows bout this.
so i kinda dread her phone call now coz she' going to nag at me.
oh,
tt reminds me,
i dreamt tt she wanted to come back during this june hols n i was so hoping she would change her mind.
i wonder y i hoped tt.
im bad.
im selfish.
i dun wan her back coz i wan to go out with my frens+dino.

i hope tml will be a gd day!

there's trg tml.
so i tot i shld drop by.
not to train,
but mayb to just be there?
lol.
so i guess i hv to slp,
though my slping habit has changed quite alot since chalet.


reply please. im waiting. rahhhhh.