oh well.
i've been thru a week of sch...
n it's been pretty dull;
and disappointing.
hmmm.
days seemed long,
while nites passed so quickly.
i hvnt got much slp and i cant believe i actually had to sacrifice my almost entire tv time for my hmwk =((
rahhh.
so much to do.
so little time left.
sometimes i wonder how much i'm actually capable of completing.
i dont want to study last min anymore.
tts wad i keep telling myself.
but everytime i find myself dreaming during lects,
stoning during tutorials,
i ask myself den y am i still procrastinating;
y am i wasting precious time.
bleah.
ct results hv really shown me how weak i am.
how much effort i've actually put in.
well,
i can still try to "deceive" myself this time by thinking tt i was busy wif bball at tt time n still recovering from everything.
yes.
it may be.
or it may not.
but i noe i definitely dun hv this excuse for prelims anymore.
so i really nid to get started.
n yes!
lauren gave me a motivation to work hard for chemistry this time round!
let's hope this motivation lasts.

so my results...
chem was pretty much expected since i gave up on it n didnt study organic.
physics was expected too coz i just couldnt concentrate on it over the wkend before the paper.
bleah.
n no miracle happened.
which explains my rubbish grade.
econs was SIGH.
i noe i screwed up but rahhh, i was hoping it would be okay, but it wasnt.
leaving me wif math, my only hope which truned out quite disappointing.
bleah.

okay,
there's going to be econs consolidation lect on mons.
n tt means i end super late.
tues there's chem so i end late too.
fri's the only hopeful day i hv left.
n i really hope no other subjects will hv remedials on this day!
or i'll really go mad!

hmmm.
well,
i thought over wad u wrote n yeah,
i guess i was a bad fren.
eh,
i still am.
but sometimes i really dun wan to be the only one u depend on...

ahhhh.
i hv gp essay to do n i still hv started. im supposed to finish by dinner time!
y do i suck at gp...