BOO!!!
today's like the 'last' day of prelims,
at least for now.
for this term,
although there's still 2 more papers to sit for whn sch starts.
RAHHH.
but it calls for a celebration.
well,
at least i can finally break free from the daily routine of going hme,
hv my lunch,
n the 'study mode' is switched on till the time i go to bed,
with occasional breaks in between.
missing out on all my tv shows...
okay,
i admit i still watch most of them.
n sometimes im simply not in the mood to study,
which makes everything ineffective n inefficient.
wad a waste of my time staring at my notes,
not absorbing anything.
urgh,
but if i dun 'study',
i'll feel guilty.
=((

okay.
prelims started last wed.
gp was okay,
i hope,
although i didnt quite hv the time for AQ.
econs essay was so-so.
i freaked out at some parts n totally didnt noe wad to write.
BOO!
chem was sigh.
i duno wad to say.
i think i felt better during common test even though i didnt study organic at all.
it seems to be a real problem for me;
CHEMISTRY!!!!
math was liddat lor.
it all depends on how careless i was.
n i hope i wasnt too careless.
physics was i dunno lahhh.
wadever i wrote i dunno if it's right.
i just wrote for the sake of filing up the blank pages.
man.
looks like i really nid help for my sciences...

alrights,
prelims aside for now.
today!!!!!
played ball...
thanks to jq, ly n fy.
so i played a bit.
didnt want to at first.
was so tired.
just wanted to slack.
hahaha.
okay, but i ended up playing.
i think i was only a bit more enthu for the very last 2 on 2 we had.
so sorry girls!
u noe me lahhh rite?

went ps after tt to buy tcher's day stuff.
but i left quite soon after tt.
sorry again!
but let's hope tml will be fun =D
yay!
baby clothes r cute!

okay.
last topic of the day.
about this MEANIE.
he reads mean book of mean for meanies!
n tts y he's so mean to me!
he says im fat n short!
hahaha.
he has a nice name though..
BUT there are very rare times whn he's nice.
(wad happened to ur teng n ai!)
he says there's a queue of girls waiting to go out wif him...
well, i doubt it!
i just dun wan to hurt him.
=PP
he thinks girls are troublesome!
>.<
but he jios them anw.
n he likes to read rubbish,
n tt's y this paragraph of rubbish is for him!
see i so nice!
so now, i hv to think of a meaner name for him!
one tt suits him better!
hehehe.

happy national day!

stayed home today...
it rained.
n the sky's still dark...
well, nothing much today.
so mayb i should talk about ytd?
hmmm.
it was not quite a bad day.
because of
this,
that,
and that.
hahaha.
no lah.
it wasnt as bad as i thought it might hv been.
yupp.
last national day celebrations was spent wif my beloved team =)
yay!
although it wasnt quite fun,
n it was super hot half way through,
it was still the last time i'll be experiencing this?
hmmm.
but we got prety high towards the end whn we sang songs.
i would agree wif marilyn tt the singing n jumping around part was quite high n fun!
=D
there'll not be such chances anymore...
awww...
so so, after the celebrations was stoning around wif jq n fy.
played a tiny bit of ball and looked for mr sham.
hahaha,
it was entertaining!
okay,
i didnt go out wif them.
yes,
i am an idiot.
how many times hv i chosen him over them.
rahhhh....
but but but,
sighhh.
i did feel sad okay =((

so anw we watched MNE2 after lunch,
n there was alot alot of ppl.
it was funny,
but it was pretty sad too.
rahhhh.
n it reminded me of my mom.
n i thought of the so many chances i hv given up to visit her,
the so many excuses i came up with.
'oh i will hv alot of trgs,
eh, i nid to study for exams...
huh! not this hols, mayb dec hols bahh..
errr, go so long arh?'
sighh.
tts super sad...

hmm.
i enjoyed his company...
sometimes i realised i might hv taken it for granted.
rahhh..
i dont know...
but it was a huge relief as he narrated it to me during lunch.
okay,
a big thank you to you, DD.
for not telling DM.
although i know u still disapprove but but,
u 'helped' us by not blowing this up.
n im really thankful for tt.




still sick.
still coughing.
i wan to recover!!!
=((

national day's coming.
n tt means prelim's really near.
sigh.
there's no more time for me to waste.
n den this has to happen.
sigh.
i found myself staring into space during lessons for the past few days.
work tt i tried to do,
i gave up within seconds.
no mood for anything.
even tv programmes i watch dun appeal to me anymore.
BOO!
i've been slping late for the past few nights as well bcoz of the seventh month dinner n stuff.
just ytd while i was watching the performance,
i asked myself y didnt i just choose to stay at hme.
well,
i didnt noe this would happen.
but anw i hope it turns out fine,
but i cant help but wonder when i'll hv to face it again.
sigh.

i realised all these time i've been critising them.
for the hurtful things they hv done to me.
the discontentment n resent i hv towards them...
so powerful.
so overwheming.
but this time i thought about their stand.
their responsibilities.
if i were them,
perhaps i might hv done the same.
previously i hv always thought their method of dealing wif this was so wrong.
well, i still think somewhat the same.
but it cant be entirely wrong.
at least the reason to why they are doing this can be somewhat justified.
they're just trying to help us aviod more problems in future?
perhaps bcoz they think we'll nv pull through such difficulties in future?
well, i dunno...
but this time i really really hoped he wouldnt tell her.
i really truly hoped he'l be on our side though i knew he was really angry.
rahhhhhhh.
i dun wan go on anymore.
pointless.

anw now all i can do is to hope,
n to cont hoping.
thanks to the few who hv been here for me these past few days!
i hope tml will b a happy day!

n i think im falling sick...
arhhh!!
i dun wan to!

there's a time for grief and a time for joy.
there's a time for tears and a time for laughter.
dont let anything else affect u.
sighhh. one n a half weeks away.
i wonder if i can do it.