national day's coming.
n tt means prelim's really near.
sigh.
there's no more time for me to waste.
n den this has to happen.
sigh.
i found myself staring into space during lessons for the past few days.
work tt i tried to do,
i gave up within seconds.
no mood for anything.
even tv programmes i watch dun appeal to me anymore.
BOO!
i've been slping late for the past few nights as well bcoz of the seventh month dinner n stuff.
just ytd while i was watching the performance,
i asked myself y didnt i just choose to stay at hme.
well,
i didnt noe this would happen.
but anw i hope it turns out fine,
but i cant help but wonder when i'll hv to face it again.
sigh.

i realised all these time i've been critising them.
for the hurtful things they hv done to me.
the discontentment n resent i hv towards them...
so powerful.
so overwheming.
but this time i thought about their stand.
their responsibilities.
if i were them,
perhaps i might hv done the same.
previously i hv always thought their method of dealing wif this was so wrong.
well, i still think somewhat the same.
but it cant be entirely wrong.
at least the reason to why they are doing this can be somewhat justified.
they're just trying to help us aviod more problems in future?
perhaps bcoz they think we'll nv pull through such difficulties in future?
well, i dunno...
but this time i really really hoped he wouldnt tell her.
i really truly hoped he'l be on our side though i knew he was really angry.
rahhhhhhh.
i dun wan go on anymore.
pointless.

anw now all i can do is to hope,
n to cont hoping.
thanks to the few who hv been here for me these past few days!
i hope tml will b a happy day!

n i think im falling sick...
arhhh!!
i dun wan to!

there's a time for grief and a time for joy.
there's a time for tears and a time for laughter.
dont let anything else affect u.
sighhh. one n a half weeks away.
i wonder if i can do it.