im blogging now, aft a verrrry loooong time bcoz i think im going to explode if i dun type/say anything.
urgh.
but i dun even noe wad's wif me!!!
>.<
im just feeling v URGH.
damn!
wad's wrong wif me!!!
this...
n that...
arhhh!!!!
i'll stil hv to survive right?
right right right???
BOO!

this.
it's not the first time right?
y am i reacting liddat!
childish behaviour!!!
totally.
but tt's probably the distinct difference now tt i've seen n realised.
BAH!
crappp...
how to stop myself frm feeling liddat!!!!!
>.<
i noe i shldnt b feeling this way but i cant help it;
seriously!!!
someone save me!!!!

that.
it's the same issue over n over again.
i get my hopes high n it falls back to sq one.
crap.
i shld hv asked more clearly.
nw who can i blame.
URGH.
but it's not a lose lose situation..
i mean, i can start all over again.
yes i can.
but will i?
can i live the life i had 2 yrs ago?
crap.
i dun wan to!
ARHHHH.
im going crazy.
n xavier's nt going to be here tml.
i think i'd die!
hopefully jasper n javier can cheer me up...
zzzzzzZZZZZzzzzzz.
sian.

oh man, i need my 'jacob' so badly,
it's a pity i hvnt found him...